I choose this photoset because I really love the Jensen soul-singer [or jazz, I don’t know anymore XD]

Okay guys, this is a farewell post. If you seeing this I’m probably dead right now. I just want to say thank you for the kindness during this whole year. I have been fighting against a inoperable brain tumor through the last 3 years and exactly 3 days ago the pain became excruciating and I went to the hospital, where the doctors said that they could make me comfortable during a few days. I’ve been living more than they expected, so they said I could die anytime. 

I never said that before because I didn’t want you clogging my askbox saying things I didn’t want to read, like “you’ll be fine”, “you’re stronger than this” and stuff. 

Fabio came to my home during the holidays, because he is my best friend forever and I truly love him. During all this time he made my life much better. That’s why I asked him to keep this blog active, reblogging Supernatural stuff. You all are probably thinking: “that’s why he was here before”, and yeah, it’s true. Fabio didn’t want to do it, but I tried so hard to convince him and then he gave up. So guys, be nice with him. (:

I have to say thank you to Erica, who started to talk to me a few months ago, always so kind and cute. Thank you for everything, sweetie. The same to Julia, who is so nice, too. And sorry. When you both asked me for a picture of mine, I couldn’t send to you, because I lost my hair about a year ago and I’m so ugly. So, I sent to you a pic of my friend, Fabio. I’m totally ashamed right now, but I couldn’t leave without saying the truth. But I regret nothing, because I don’t wanna make you remember my sick face. At least, now you know why I always refused to talk using webcam. 

I’ll never have words to describe how good you were in my life.

And Willow, thank you. You was so important in my last days, you have no idea. 

Now, I have something else to ask: if someday any of you guys meet Jensen Ackles in person, please, let him know that I love him so much it hurts, that I wish him the best, because he deserves it. And please, watch Supernatural. This show was the most important thing that happened in my life. Supernatural made me cry, laugh, scream out loud… Sometimes it made me depressed, and sometimes it turned me on, because, with cancer or not, I’m still a gay man. Anyway, thank you. 

I can’t write anymore. I guess I have nothing left to say. And Julie [or Jules, sorry], Fabio told me about your fanfiction on livejournal. He always talked to you using my tumblr account, because he doesn’t have one. Wish I could have had time to read it, I’m pretty sure it’s awesome, just the way Fabio talked about.

Anyway, it could take some time until Fabio starts to post something new, so please, don’t unfollow him. XD

And guys, believe. You can do whatever you want. Just believe. If you can’t handle the depression, ask for help. Don’t give up. Just DON’T GIVE UP. 

Thank You.

Johnnanthan Burcovick. 

12.23.2011

Johnanthan Burcovick, the owner of this blog and beloved friend and son passed away on December 27, 2011, victim of a stroke caused by a brain tumor. During the last three years, John had been fighting against this disease and, unfortunately, he lost his last battle. We’re keeping this blog running, just like John wanted to. We miss you, John. We hope you’ve found peace and love wherever you are.